Why Won't the Tears Come?

Why won’t the tears come?

I wish they would

I want to be held so badly

But no one is there

No one is ever there

Just to hold me

It doesn’t have to be more

I want someone to care

To be there for me

This apartment seems so empty

Despite the furniture in it

I don’t need furniture

I need a person

A person that actually cares

Someone who is there when I come home

I want to cry so badly

But the tears won’t come

Why won’t the tears come?

Jaclyn Horton

Hold Me

Some days I cry out to Mother, the Mother of my soul.
Craving someone to hold me
Just hold me
It doesn't have to be anything more
If that makes me weak
Then I'm weak
So be it
Still it doesn't change the fact
That I crave human contact
A physical touch
To curl up in someone's arms
Would be worth so much to me
Even though it's been years
I still go on
I persist
I place my hopes
That someone will accept my heart
Upon the altar of the Mother of my soul

Jaclyn Horton

Why Am I Ignored?

Why am I continually ignored?

I try to say things

Or write poetry

But more often than not

I feel I am ignored

Have I done something wrong?

Is something wrong with me?

I don’t have any diseases

I just want companionship

Is that asking too much?

I don’t think so

My heart just longs for companionship

Instead there is only silence

Jaclyn Horton

Like A Child

Sometimes I feel like a child
Reaching for it's Mother
The world seems so big and scary
Maybe if I close up into a shell
Nothing can harm me
All I want is for myself and others to be loved
Is that hard to understand?
Instead everyone tries to outdo everyone else
Stepping on whoever they must
On the way to the proverbial top
I just want to be ok
And for everyone else to be ok
I guess that makes me strange
At least to others
I reject the climb to the top
Especially at the expense of others
We do much better as race
By helping each other along the way
Afterall we are all One
We are more alike than different

Jaclyn Horton

Naked Before You

Mother Sophia, Mother Lilith once again I lay naked before you
You see me as I am
I do not hide my nakedness from you
You also can see my pain
My physical pain as well as my emotional pain
I ask you to fill my entire being with Your spirits
Please take away my pain
It hurts so much
If I'm supposed to learn something from this
Please help me to comprehend the lesson
Help me to grow as a person, as a spiritual being
I open myself up to both of You
Please guide me
Take control of me
It is hard for me to go on
Yet I won't harm the gift You have given me
Whenever You decide to take my spirit
I truly commit my spirit to you
I will trust it in your hands

To both of You I humbly bow

Jaclyn Horton

Mother How Much Longer?

Mother how much longer?

How much longer must I endure?
How many more lessons must I learn?
I see the pain within this world and in my very soul 
Isn't this enough?
Mother how much longer?

Jaclyn Horton

I Am Spirit

I am a spiritual being inhabiting a physical body

I am an infinite being

I am a child of God, the Creator/Creatrix of the Universe

I reject all limitations and rules upon my spirit

I long to be free

I have lived many lifetimes

I may live many more or this may be my last

I am vast, whole star systems reside within my being

I am Spirit

Jaclyn Horton

Hear My Call

My Beloved I call out to you.

Are you here?

I long to be with you

To feel your body against mine

Wrapping my arms around you

Not wanting to let you go

Our bodies intertwined

Our hearts as One

Feeling each other

Words are not necessary

We know each other's thoughts

We are of one spirit

Do you hear my call?

It is you I desire

Take my body

It is yours

Take my heart

It is yours as well

Take my entire being

I offer it to you

Take me my beloved.

Jaclyn Horton

I'm light, I'm dark

I'm light

I'm dark

Both are welcomed

Both are loved

Light and dark are both

So much a part of me

Both of these

Have so much to teach me

I open my heart to light

I open my heart to dark

Fill my being completely

With what you have to teach me.

Jaclyn Horton

My Heart Bleeds for Gaia

My heart bleeds for Gaia. I want so much for her to be returned to her original state. Yet we will die before she does, which may happen yet according to some. Perhaps this is why I feel such feelings about working for corporatism that just makes things worse. I crave an organic life, not one in concrete and steel. I'm not concerned about my own life, I'm more concerned with Hers. I am spirit inhabiting a human body. I am eternal spirit, as we all are so if I have to eventually leave this body, so be it but I want it to count for something. I hope I can somehow help Her....

I feel your energy

I feel your energy

Descending down through the realms

Originating from the Pleroma itself

I realize you can not send it all at once to me

Doing so would utterly destroy me

Yet, I seek more

More of your energy

As much as I can possibly take

Please fill my being

With your presence

I adore you

I love you

Direct me as you see fit

Raise me up

Bring me into your presence

To your heights

Thank you

Lunar Delight

Lunar Delight

As I journey home

I know I am not alone

For in the sky is such a sight

Making tonight such a glorious night

Hanging low in the sky

The crescent moon makes my heart sigh

I can feel your energy flowing through me

You make it so easy to just be

I feel the Mother through you

My soul adores the view

Thank you for blessing me this night

With such a glorious sight

Jaclyn Horton