My Rock

Sometimes I embrace myself

During times like these I am the only one who will

Still I know that my Mother

Who gave my soul life

Who brought me into being

She is there, She will always be there

So when my soul feels like crying out

To see if anyone will listen

I know She listens

She knows the pain I go through

She is my Rock, upon who I lean

Jaclyn Horton

I feel your energy

I feel your energy

Descending down through the realms

Originating from the Pleroma itself

I realize you can not send it all at once to me

Doing so would utterly destroy me

Yet, I seek more

More of your energy

As much as I can possibly take

Please fill my being

With your presence

I adore you

I love you

Direct me as you see fit

Raise me up

Bring me into your presence

To your heights

Thank you

Memory Loss

I had a conversation with Joy before our meditation group meditation time about memory loss I was having. I mentioned having to use a search engine to jar my memory about the name of the person I was thinking of (this time it was Mitt Romney).  She said I had mentioned it more often lately. I wasn't sure if I had or not, but what she said makes sense.  I don't feel like I'm in depression at this time. Before when I was suffering from depression I seemed to have more memory loss and mental fog. My Mom is having memory loss, forgets conversations we've had.  Her uncle had alzheimers and her aunt had memory issues, although I think that appeared later in life. Not sure how relevant that is. I remember once she had mentioned calling Aunt Rosemary. My Mom had to tell her that Aunt Rosemary had passed away a number of years before that.
I get frustrated at times with not being able to recall certain memories or thoughts I feel like I should be able to. Some people say it's just because I'm getting older now, but I'm not so sure.  I feel like I'm just being blown off when I mention that. I feel concerned and frustrated over it.