Contacting Rhiannan

Here on New Year's Eve  I sent an email to Rhiannan asking to get together with her. I really hope we can get together, but I'm leaving that up to her. If she says yes I will gladly meet with her. I hope it happens. She's been the best friend I've ever had. I hope we can get past any differences. I still care deeply for her. I can't see that ever changing. However, it is up to her. I want whatever is best for both for us though. May both of us have peace, abundance and love throughout this New Year.

21 Days of Thankfulness

I am thankful for friends that support me, love that holds me through the trials and Jasper who has been there even through the tears.


I am thankful for the lessons learned through painful experiences. I am thankful for everyone I have called friend--both currently and in the past. I am thankful for being born the way that I am--even if some may not understand my true nature.


I'm thankful for the open road. I'm thankful for loud Classic Rock. I'm thankful for a rockin' sound system.


I am thankful for lessons on love (not necessarily romantic love). I am thankful for happy memories to hold onto. I am thankful for acceptance.


I am thankful for the abundance that is coming into my life. I am thankful for the love in my life. I am thankful for the friends in my life.


I am thankful for those that fill my life with love. I am thankful for love itself. I am thankful for being guided towards more growth.


I am thankful for the abundance that is coming into my life. I am thankful for being blessed by the many friendships I've been able to over the past few years. I am thankful for the guidance I've received by these friends.


I am thankful for family, despite our differences. I am thankful for those that accept me as I am. I am thankful for my kids, even though they are grown and no longer are kids anymore.


I am thankful for people that support me, even through my emotional outbursts! I am thankful for the support of friends through very trying times. I am thankful for the love of my friends.


I am thankful for my spiritual Mother and Higher Self's guidance through these treacherous waters. 
I am thankful for my spiritual friends who offer guidance and blessings through this upcoming journey.
I am thankful for the lessons learned over the past few months.


I am thankful for the angels of protection that watch over me.
I am thankful that I haven't been assaulted.
I am thankful for the many blessings I have been blessed with each and every day.

Latest Happenings--12-16-2018

Today I met with my friend Molly. Molly and I have been through much together. The first time we met in person was in Wisconsin, although I knew her online before that point. I had told her I was planning to move to Alabama but not before going back to Wisconsin, at the end of January, to visit Tiffany, my daughter. Molly said she would like to reconnect there. She may go back go back to Wisconsin before I do and we could connect there. She may go on to Alabama with me. That would be nice to have another person I know there. My parents had asked if I would move back to Alabama a few days ago. I had been undecided until I went to a ceremony at my friend, Quynh's house. The ceremony clarified things for me. Quhyn did mention what she had seen concerning this trip. She saw that my dad would not change, indeed, she saw that he has his back turned towards me. This probably has to do with the fact that he sees me as an embarrassment due to my transition from male to female. Quhyn saw that my mother, on the other hand, was loving towards me. This is the way I see things too. With Molly going, I will have multiple people supporting me. My friend Susan, who was a therapist for me when I lived down there before. I'm looking at the cities of Montgomery, Prattville, and Auburn. I would also like to be near water. The Alabama River flows through Prattville, which would be a definite plus. I'm a huge Auburn fan, so it would be great living that close to the university. I envision a house that is like a sanctuary for Sophia with tapestries inside and pictures of incarnations of Sophia such as Mary Magdalene and Mother Mary. It would be on or near the water. I will be able to visit my parents and my 2 boys with me living in the Montgomery area.

I think I hurt a rib on my left side. I either cracked a rib, bruised it or hurt a muscle between the lung and the rib cage if I were to guess. Tonight I had a fairly major asthma attack. I'm now out of puffs on all inhalers. I have $12 to my name so I can't get a refill on it right now. I will get paid on Wednesday the 19th, so I'll try to hold on till then. Coffee seems to help some so I guess I'll be drinking lots of coffee lol.

I'm feeling really thankful for those who have stuck around for me and supported me. Yes, the one person I really want to support me isn't here, but there's nothing I can do about that. I will accept the support of those that have stuck around. I'm hoping things will go well in Alabama. I will stay in communication with my friends in the Bay Area. I feel I've grown quite a bit while living here.

What I Long For

I long for a feeling of comfort
I long for a feeling of warmth, environmental warmth as well as relationship warmth
I long for a feeling of acceptance
I long for a feeling of being loved as I am
I long for a feeling of not having to live up to other's expectations of me
I long for a feeling of not having to struggle to exist
I long for a feeling of being good enough
I long for a feeling of abundant living
I long for a feeling of thriving.

Jaclyn C. Horton

Lead Me

I ask you to reveal to me
Where you would have me to go
What you would have me to do
Please allow me to be Your tool
Use me to further Your plan
May others be blessed through me

Jaclyn C. Horton
December 9, 2018

The Hidden Door

One day I found a hidden door I had never seen before. I decided to go through it when no one was to see what I could find. I was expecting maybe a dusty old attic at the most, but boy was I surprised. As I climbed through the door I noticed there seemed to be some natural light and not the dingy light I was expecting. As I gathered my bearings I wasn't standing on wood at all but grass. I appeared to be at the edge of a forest. Beyond this there was a clearing and off in the distance there were what appeared to be some structures. The buildings were on a hill, which made them look even more impressive. Leading down the hill were many steps. At the foot of the hill was a sitting area with stone furniture. There were chairs and what appeared to be loveseats, or in my world it would be called that. Which made me wonder where in the world am I? Or am I even on Earth anymore? Sitting on the furniture were a number of beings, they all weren't people, many looked liked creatures, creatures out of a fantasy. Elves and dwarves, angels, off in the distance I'm pretty sure I saw a unicorn and above everything I saw a pegasus flying. Wow this is to much to take in! Just then someone begins walking towards me dressed in a long flowing robe. I wonder what he could want with me?

Everything Reminds Me of Her

It seems all the posts I see seem to remind me of Rhiannan. I realize the writers' didn't intend them that way but I still see her through them. While I'm not crying at the drop of a hat anymore, my thoughts still go back to her. I have a feeling that's not going to change anytime soon. I wonder if things will ever change, if we will ever become friends again. I hope we do but, at the same time, I only want this to happen if we will both benefit from it. I am leaving it up to her. I feel that me going to her would be an intrusion of her privacy. I did put the location (her apartment) of where a picture of Jazmine was taken. She did respond to it, which was nice. I felt that we were both in agreement that we wanted Jazmine to come "home." My wishes are that she will receive healing and love.

Posting my thoughts

I am having second thoughts about posting my thoughts. My emotions tends to flow, that can be good bad, up and down. A friend is having difficulty with that. I tend to try to be real. At the same time I want to spread higher vibrations. Again I don't want to appear like I'm always happy. That, to me, would be dishonest, disengenious. This is a very dear friend to me......