February 17, 2018

I haven't written in awhile. Much has happened since the last time I wrote. I had moved out to Oregon, helping my friend, my best friend, move here since her Mom has Cancer. The stress affected us both and I feel we were triggering each other. Both of us having anxiety and at times depression issues. The stress pulled us and it affected our relationship. I still consider her my friend, I always will. She has since found a girlfriend (I'm happy for her). They've found an apartment together. I'm still couch surfing, unable to find a home of my own. I'm still working in the group home. I did get punched at by a client. I'm back in Lincoln City (I had transferred to Beaverton for a short time). I'm about to resign though. I'm joining my friend Molly in house flipping again. I'll be picking her up in Oakland. We'll start our venture near the end of this month. I hope to see my friend again before I head down to California. I'm not sure when will be the next time I will be up this way. I'm looking forward to seeing Molly again. I've really missed her. She makes me laugh during times when I really need it. I haven't seen my kids in almost 2 years. I really miss them. They last time I saw them and my parents was May of 2016 (near Mother's Day). If things go well with the house flipping, it may end up being an inheritance gift. I really hope that comes to pass. I don't think I've been a good parent. I would love to leave this world by at least doing one thing right for them.

Jaclyn C. Horton