4/29/2017

I woke up this morning feeling like I'm not good enough. I want to be loved, to be held, to be nurtured. It feels like I'm just existing, not living. I feel so tired, not really physically, although there's plenty of that. I feel soul-tired. Sometimes I just want to move on. The desire in me right now is to have an incarnation where I just relax and have a good time. This one has been a big challenge for me. 

4/23/2017

I've been under a lot of stress lately. I'm through with the pre-employment training and am starting the the shadowing of other employees doing their jobs. The anxiety has been getting to me. The other job I had I didn't succeed at so I hope I fare better this time around. Friday I didn't want to go but pushed through and ended up having a pretty good day. On the way home and yesterday I've had high anxiety. I've been trying to treated it with herbal remedies. I really want to succeed and help others.

Thoughts 4-10-17

I feel like I'm making progress. It's been so long since I've worked but I start training for a new job on Wednesday. I feel real good about it and being more self-reliant. While I appreciate all many have done for me, I want to be able to support myself as much as I can. Finally I feel like I am closer to that goal.

04/09/2017

Yesterday my friend Rhiannan and I spent some time with her family in the Portland area. It's nice to feel accepted by her family. I've been told thank you for helping to bring her back to Oregon. It's nice to be appreciated but truth is Rhiannan is my best friend and I would drop everything if she needed me. We got back late last night. It was so nice to get home.

Today we're planning to go to the beach and let Coda run and pick up a few things. I love going to the beach. It's so beautiful there.

As I look out the window
I see a rainy landscape
An incredible amount off precipitation
Fall onto the already drenched Oregon countryside.
Even though even more rain seems inconvenient
To us who would love to do outside activities
Looking around one doesn't have to look very far
To witness the beauty of greenness
From grass to shrubbery to the wide variety
Of trees in this area
It is such a blessing to witness this beauty
One just has to be willing to look for it
I look forward to viewing many other sites
That Oregon has to offer.
Jaclyn C. Horton
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How Blessed I Am!

I look within myself I look upon the snow covered plains. I look at the surf pounding the rocky shore I look at the I look at the Rocky Mountains. I look at the white sands of the Gulf of Mexico. All of it is evidence of Your hand. I am in awe of Your presence. The vast galaxies tell me how awesome is Your power. You created all of this yet You reside in my heart. How blessed I am! 

Jaclyn Horton 

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Latest Happenings-4-6-2017

Last month I moved to Oregon with my best friend. It's so peaceful here. We're about 45 minutes from the Oregon coast in the country. Also sharing the house with us are 5 cats, 1 rabbit and 1 6 month old puppy. It's nice to be here and have some stability finally. I also for the first time in a long time I feel comfortable calling the place I reside at home.

I also had a job interview on the 5th of this month. Training starts next Wednesday. It's for a Certified Support Provider, so I can finally use my psychology degree. I'm really looking forward to working there. There's good opportunity for advancement.

Last week I drove down to the Bay Area to pick up my stuff from storage in San Francisco. I also was able to spend some time with my friend Quynh, which was nice.

I feel more at peace now also.