It's amazing how the longer I'm away from someone, from a relationship, eventually things bubble up to the surface. Things that I had suppressed for a long time. Back then I would just take it because I was afraid of hurting her. Anyway, I and her had been staying with her brother at their house. I was sleeping on one couch, while she slept on the other. Anyway, her dog, who really loved me, came over and laid with me. She says, oh not my dog too! What I wish I had said was go lead her dog to her and say "here's your dog," and got my things and left. If she had asked where I was going I would say "anywhere where you're not at!"
The past few months, I've begun to feel more anger towards her and the things that happened. Things that I suppressed, as I mentioned. I'm feeling like as a result I'm in a more healthy place. It's amazing how not stuffing anger can help us. However, I don't feel back then I was even aware of what I was feeling back then. I consider it a growing experience and accept it as that. I also accept it as learning more about myself. I seem to be learning more and more in that area, which is a good thing.
Jaclyn Horton
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