I Am Enough

For years I felt I wasn't good enough. Wasn't good enough for your love. I still loved you, would do anything for you. I would make any sacrifices for you. Even lay down my life it would protect you from harm. I knew you didn't feel the same way that I felt for you. For years I just accepted the "fact" that I wasn't good enough to receive your love. When you unfriended me it felt like the Universe itself was crumbling to me. I literally yelled out to the Universe and I could feel the reverberations from the energy I had sent out reverberate back to me like a giant bell. The sound it generated announcing the doom of the relationship, with whom, I loved more than life itself.

Now I realize that I have a lot to offer. Her love has nothing to do with my own self worth. I am so much more valuable than that. In fact, I see her and I have a pity on her. I feel I have grown so much since that fateful day in May, 2018. I am truly not the same person as I was back then. I've had to pick up the pieces of my heart and glue them back together with the glue of self-love, tenderly and carefully. Many tears were shed and sure my friends got tired of hearing the story but I grew from the experience. I thank my friends for supporting me during that time, one in particular. During this time I've also grown closer to Mother Sophia, the mother of my spirit and also Mary Magdalene, the feminine Christos. I thank both of them for Their love during this time and beyond. 

Jaclyn C. Horton