A Life Not Taken

I was told by my former best friend to drive off a cliff
To end my life
Sometimes I wonder how things would be different
If I had done what she asked
Sometimes there was nothing I wanted more
Was the fact that I didn't follow through
A matter of strength?
I would like to think so
But I'm really not sure
I keep thinking back to those times
Despite everything that happened
I still love her
I suffered more pain that I can ever imagine
I think death would have hurt less
So I think it was a matter of perseverance
Of endurance
I would like to think
That karma is paid up
I truly hope so
Mine anyway
I can't speak for her though
I ask that all the hosts of Heaven
Would watch over her
Not for any recognition for me
But that she would be blessed
In all that she does
In every aspect of her life
Her entire being
May she be filled with healing
May she be filled with wisdom
May she be filled with abundance
May she be filled with love

Jaclyn C. Horton