Around the end of February/beginning of March, while doing work on my car, I inadvertently left the car door open and one of the cats that my friend Rhiannan had let me keep escaped. I felt awful about it and she was quite angry about it. She said many harsh words about the situation. I was very hurt by what she said and also was very upset that I had let her down. It seems one of my biggest fears is letting her down. This appears to be a self-fulfilling prophecy.
I've been homeless for the most part. I've either been sleeping on a friend's couch, sleeping in a motel or sleeping in my car. I did get a job at Lowe's, which is a positive. Another friend seemed to think my desire to be restless, to want to move to a different area after a short while could be tied to my
ADD/ADHD. I'm beginning to think she might be right. My goal the foreseeable future is to work on healing myself. I feel inside my mind is a scary place. Not a safe place to be at all. My desire is to heal myself. I don't think I would be a good fit for anyone until I am able to do that.
Jaclyn C. Horton
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