Others

Others, for many years, have always said I shouldn't have anything to do with you. That you will use and manipulate me. I've always hated hearing this and have pretty much ignored their advice. Thing is I really care about you. I have for quite some time. I feel incapable of leaving you, for not caring for you. I feel incapable of not loving you, in some capacity anyway. I feel like I don't have a choice but to love you, even if platonically. I do believe we have a history in a past life or even past lives. I also believe I hurt you terribly in a past life and part of my karma is to help you. I have no proof of this of course but I believe this with all my heart. In a somatic healing session, what came up was events from a past live. We were together as a romantic couple. I ended up cheating on you and you ultimately killed me. Perhaps that's why I'm afraid to tell you certain things, not that you would kill me again but still fear does play a part. For this I am terribly sorry and offer my apology to you. I also feel like I have abandonment issues. This could be from my own family or perhaps karma again since I abandoned you. Even though these events happened many years ago, I believe that they play a part in our current lives and affect us currently. You may or may not believe this but deep in my heart of hearts I do. I hope one day to generate enough courage to show you this.