Today, during this time, I find my thoughts going back to thoughts of Rhiannan. While I'm not crying buckets anymore, my thoughts sometimes go back to her. I wonder what she's doing, how she is. I really hope she's ok, even if she doesn't want anything to do with me. I wish her the best, I wish her healing, in her physical body, in her psyche as well as in her soul. I want her to believe in herself and to see herself the way I see her. I see her as a wonderful person who has gone through quite a bit during this lifetime. Even if we never talk or see each other again, I do feel blessed for having known her. I can't help but miss her. As tears well up in my eyes, I wish I could tell her these thoughts of mine and more. I wish so much that I could share with her these thoughts of mine. I would love to share my heart, even if it's just occassional conversations, occassional sharings. I get so many things from people when I share with them, but the one person I want to hear from is her. I so want to message her or call her but I realize this probably is not wise. I realize that I should wait for an invitation from her, otherwise it may be seen as being intrusive, and according to some, abusive. The the last thing I want to do to her, is abuse her. I want her to be healed from abuse. I want my heart to be open to her as resource to her when things get bad or a place she can share her victories or just share the joys she experiences when her furries do something cute. I wish her health, I wish her blessings, I wish her peace.
Jackie
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