Authenticity

I had a photography gig on Wednesday. I was actually hoping this would be the start of something bigger involving photography. I had to cancel because of an asthma attack. What I didn't know before that point the person I was talking to get the gig, who I also consider a friend, went behind my back and asked Quynh, who is a mutual friend for a reference. I had no knowledge of this so there was no consent. Now if I'm ever in a place where the two of us are together it will be AWKWARD. I'm kind of miffed because of that. Plus she got mad at Quynh and Quynh was worried I was mad at her. All because of one failure to obtain consent. Lack of communication can cause effects in many unexpected ways.

I think one of my resolutions I'm going to work, try my best anyway, is authenticity and expect that in others. Sometimes it's difficult for me because of the fear of judgment or just being uncomfortable. I did already tell that guy who stood me when he was asking if we could meet that I wasn't interested. That would've been hard for me in the past and it wasn't easy this time. But the truth of the matter is I don't have any interest in the man, at least not romantically. In the past I just would've went along with them. Anyway my attempt at a new and improved Jackie.