Healing

 I have a feeling it is going to take a long time to heal. First from my Dad's passing and possibly my Mom's. I've cried so many tears lately and cried more today. I'm back in the Bay Area, Berkeley, which has been the most healing for me in the past. Still I suspect it will take some time to get through this. This isn't exactly something one gets over easily. I feel like I'm being blocked from seeing my mother. I want so much to be by her side. At least I got to see my Mom and Dad back in July. Even then my Dad didn't like that I hadn't called and discussed it ahead of time. I called when I was in Arizona. My Mom answered and she was ecstatic to be able to see me. My Dad showed much less enthusiasm. Still, I miss my Dad and love him very much. So many memories have been passing through my mind. I am glad, though, that I am near my friends in the Bay Area.