This morning I noticed that Sandy had unfriended me. When I asked for the break she said she would be there when I returned. I really despise when people go back on their word, especially with affairs of the heart. This really hurts. I honestly don't believe she could handle me, handle my emotions, handle the intensity of my love. I seem to have problem that can handle it. It's like opening the floodgates of the Hoover dam. I gave her my most treasured possession--my heart, and she crushed it. She had a tendency towards avoidance, in retrospect. I wish her well, but this hurts like hell. Of course today is the first day of the Chiron retrograde. It is very possible that this is related to it, something that is coming up for healing. I'm doing my best to flow with the emotions, go with them and not bury them, but deal with them. I'm not sure how long this will take. But ultimately my task, which I accept, is to heal myself.
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